| so a lot has been goin on in my life. one thing i would like to note is i feel like an asshole. everytime i think about what i did to her. i cant believe i could do such a thing. she didnt do anything to desserve it either! i just did it, hoping it would pass by, and i would be happy blah blah blah blah blah! BUT NO! it didnt pass. in fact. it backfired and now im stuck here just feeling bad. i wanna bring it up whenever i talk with her, but i cant.
i dont know if she'll ever forgive me.
what will i say if she ever brings it up?
what to do...
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| a puzzle piece.
i cant believe its been sooo longg!!
you open the box to a brand new puzzle, and you look at each piece. you begin to think to yourself, "i wonder how this will turn out!"
well each person you meet, or event you partake in is like a piece in a puzzle. when it is all put together, it will create a beautiful picture. your life story. each piece has its own purpose. whether it be to fill in small spaces, or to be a part of the main subject.
i once sed to a girl... "you are a puzzle piece...." i really meant it. i didnt know what part of my life she was going to play at the time... but now i know.
in 6th grade i called my bestfriend up to see what he's doing, when an unfamiliar voice answered the fone.
"Are you hott??" she said to me.
Shocked at the question, i responded with a safe, "I dont know...? You tell me.."
"NO! i mean temperature wise!"
"Well..." i paused, "it is summer, and even though my airconditioner is on, i am pretty hot!" i replied, still confused about whom it was i was conversing with.
a voice i recognized finally spoke up in the background, "Who is that??" it was my bestfriend Steven Buensuceso. "Sorry about that. my little cousin is over here from arizona. i dont think you'll ever have to meet her in person."
"GOOD. she's annoying!" i told him. even though secretly i did want to meet her.
two years pass, it was summer of 2003, and i had just finished my 8th grade year. i was so excited for highschool when someone unexpected came into my life.
my fone rings. "Hello?"
"hey brian," steven says to me, "can you let me know when ripcurlbabe051 signs online? its my cousin, and i gotta tell her something."
"oh yeah sure!" i respond while typing in the screen name onto my buddylist.
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shoji katsuki: hey, this is brian. steven's friend. he told me to tell you he needed to tell you something.
ripcurlbabe051: oh hi. im casey.
ripcurlbabe051: i'll call steven right now.
ripcurlbabe051: so how are you?
(shocked! shes actually talking to me.)
shoji katsuki: im good!
shoji katsuki: where are you from??
ripcurlbabe051: arizona!
shoji katsuki: HEY! youre that one girl that....................
(millions hours later, hundreds of fone calls, thousands of text messages, a trip to arizona, and a visit to cali..)
casey! be my girlfriend.
all was swell.. long distance didnt phaze us! shit niggaaa.
k i lied. it was pretty hard to keep this relationship together...
lies were told, trust was broken, and so were two hearts.
for the next two years, we went back and forth with eachother talking, fighting, talking, fighting.
till finally. it was done.
we still talk occasionally, when problems in our lives come to bite us in the ass.. or just to catch up with eachother..
although we might not agree on many things in life..
she is still my bestfriend.. and i love her.
no matter what. :]
when i sed to you... "you are a puzzle piece that completes a picture of my life." i was serious. you are that puzzle piece, and you will always have a part in my life, cuz without you... im not complete. :]
thanks casey victoria abella.
and congratulations c/o 09.
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| :P k. sooo! About the Cressida project.. it still hasn't gone anywhere, and i still havnt even gotten pictures of the car. but its okay! lol. im not gonna post anyy i dont think.
soo! i havnt abandoned all hope yet. just kinda downsized on the dream.
right now i just want the car to run, and be drift-able.
heres the new agenda!!!
Rebuilt 7MGE (turbo maybe later?)
R154 Manual Transmission
Memory Fab Bucket Seats (S58)
Crow Harnesses
LSD
Coilovers (Serial Nine/Stance or Megan)
Custom Strut Bars
Random Sets of Wheels
and that should be all for now?
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| it has been almost a month now, and nothing new has been done to the car. she is still just sitting there. just a million thoughts running through my head. thoughts of what to do to this blank canvas. there is a lot i want to do to her, but heres the only thing stopping me. Money is always an issue for everything. but until i have the funds, i will continue to dream on. :]
things on our agenda
1JZGTE
JDM Chaser Front and Rear End
RHD Conversion?
10-14pt SCCA+NASA Certified Roll Cage
Chassis Stiffening (Strut Bars and Braces)
Custom Wheel Wells
Custom Transmission Tunnel
Serial Nine/Stance Coilovers and Other Suspension Components
Increased Steering Angle w/use of Nissan S chassis Parts
Paint
Wheels
damnn... thats a lot to dream about. :\
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